I’m back and I’m bad (or, I’m lazy and sorry)

imageThere is so much to catch up on.

Ive been thinking so much about deleting this page, starting again – afresh and all that, but then I thought no, I’ll just leave it, move on and try to make an effort to catch up on things.

so. Much. So, so much.

did you know my wee baby is 13 months?

I can’t believe my last post was in February.

I think having a wee baby and trying to write when you are sleep deprived and struggling with this new wee tiny human and trying to be everything else for everyone just got a bit overwhelming. I was really scared of getting post natal depression, and I thought for a wee bit that I was unwell. Both my mother and sister developed PND, and even had elements of psychosis. I understandably was a bit worried. I haven’t actually shared that with anyone and I guess that’s been a bit of an issue, too. I got out the other side though, so relief!

the turnaround for me was really doing the colour run, and of course for Eli to get a bit older and sleep a bit more regularly. My work was taking over, things were too chaotic, I was struggling with relationships. Things had to simplify and I just had to focus on the wee man, the family, and myself.

but, things are changing all the time here. More work, more fun with the wee man, more work on the house, trying to get it all right and all in order.

theres going to be so much to talk about in the next while, and I look forward to sharing this journey with you!

See you again soon!

Em

A Lot of Things

A LOT has been going on in my life lately. I have been struggling to keep up! I’m filling in for someone at work this fortnight, and man it has been a huge juggling act. The good news is, we could really benefit from a cash injection, and after next Friday we are on holiday for a long weekend. Cannot WAIT.

So, I have had a bit of a revelation in the last few weeks. Happiness comes from the choices you make. You can choose to dwell on things that have happened, or you can move on. There are so many other things to focus on in life that are brilliant. When I was at university, friends of mine came up with the idea of a gratitude journal (this idea was ultimately stolen from the Oprah show). Writing down the positives really do help to change your mindset. Instead of writing things down this time around I thought action should speak louder than words. So I gave myself a goal.

I am doing the colour run with my friend. 

I am so scared but excited. The whole idea behind doing it is to give me something positive to focus on, push myself physically and mentally, and have an ongoing goal whenever I go for a run. Run longer, faster, and funner. I want to be able to enjoy the experience.

So, it’s been really good to focus on the positive instead of dwelling on the negative. Other things I have to look forward to are going to Havelock North for a break next weekend; my sister is coming over from the UK for a visit; the colour run; my bestie coming for a visit; and my Pop also coming to stay with us.

Even in the darkest situations you can still find goodness. I love my life. Things aren’t always perfect. I’ve found being a new mum and being tired, stressed, and like you are fighting against the world is pretty universal. Your other relationships do take a back seat, but I am getting so much joy from being a mumma, and I know things will get so much easier in other parts of my life, too. 

Here is to happiness for all.

Em.

Getting There!

I have been getting short sharp bursts of motivation to create my business. It comes and goes, but at the moment I am all for it.

As I sit in front of the computer, researching business cards, I feel a little “American Psycho”. What font? What colour? Need reminding of what i’m talking about?

So, yes..advertising. All part of the game apparently. I’m trying to get myself out there to obtain more music students, expand what i’m offering to particular groups and demographics, and yes ultimately call the shots fully so I can earn and be with my wee guy. That’s the goal anyway.

It will be interesting to see how my employment changes in the coming months. I know although i’m earning at the moment, I can earn more, spend more time at home, and do what I love, which is music.

SO many ideas!

Better get on with it!

Busy Busy Busy

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The last week has seen me get back into some resemblance of a routine. 

The boys are back at school, so now it’s just me, the animals, and the bub at home. It’s been good to have some space to think, and i’m not nearly as lonely as I thought I would be. 

Every morning I have been going for long walks with the stroller and Cleo. The weather has been epic, and it’s so good to be able to get out without being in pain and walk for a good couple of hours. I absolutely love this town. Great walking tracks, and it’s so peaceful – except for the chirping of the cicadas!

So, I have started working from home again, setting up music lessons. I have 4 students at the moment and I am looking to expand that in to lessons that can go throughout the day with beginner adults. I have even contacted an accountant today to get my ideas in order and to sort out my tax, so that I can focus on what is important and not worry myself with the nitty-gritty.

I have gotten back in to good habits with exercise and eating. I have even lost a couple of kilos, so am feeling a bit better about things there.

bub is doing really well this week. I cracked out the jolly jumper today, and he LOVES it.

All is well in the sunshine. Right I have a student arriving soon! Better get organised.

xx Em

new year, clean slate

it’s 2014. Wow. 2013 for me was a hugely hectic time filled with life changing experiences. I have changed as a person both physically and mentally since becoming a mother. I feel like I am more driven with my goals as they are all about what will benefit me, and my wee man. This year is going to be about setting a path for the future, doing things that I love, and things that will enrich the lives of those around me. 

So, with no further delay, I will make a promise to myself. To try. To work hard. To be proud of myself. To use the skills that I have and not to compromise.

I look forward to working on this blog more and sharing my life and my loves.

xoxoxo

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my top 5 holiday pics

hi! it’s been a while. I very much apologise for my lateness, but I have been preoccupied with a few things: holidays, houses, and babies. In September, I am going to be a mum.

So, before I unindate my life with all things baby related, the husband and I had our honeymoon. England, Wales, Ireland, Spain, France. One month of sheer treating ourselves. And it felt SO good.

So, here are my top 5 pictures of the 550-odd snaps we took. More to be featured later 🙂

Greenwich, London.

Greenwich, London.

Wild Bluebells, Kerry, Ireland

Wild Bluebells, Kerry, Ireland

Irish Woldhounds, Bunratty, Ireland

Irish Wolfhounds, Bunratty, Ireland

Chillies, La rambla Market, Barcelona
Chillies, La rambla Market, Barcelona

Walking in Paris

Walking in Paris

 

Good Fast Food: Chili for Mah Belly

Wednesdays for us are usually a rush-a-round ordeal. I have no time to cook as I have a pilates class at 6pm, and then I get picked up by the boys to take Cleo to agility at 7.30.

So, what to do when you don’t have much time and you want something healthy and yummy?

Fast Chili. So easy to make, and you can jazz it up with some flatbread.

Chili

1 carrot

1/2 onion

1 tsp cumin

1/2 capsicum

olive oil

corriander

1 bay leaf

Sea salt and pepper

1 can mexican style tomatoes

1 can ortega black beans with jalapenos

Add your oil in to a pan. throw in onion, cumin, capsicum and carrot. mix well.

Add beans, tomatoes, and bay leaf.

Cook til things bubble, then turn it down. Stir occasionally.

It will probably be ready in about 10 minutes.

Top with salt, pepper, corriander, and some sour cream and grated cheese if you feel like it.

Flat Bread:

exactly the same as my recipe for pizza bread, but fried on a griddle iron. If you can’t be bothered trawling:

1 cup wholemeal flour

1 tsp sugar

1 1/2 tsp yeast

1/2 cup warm water

1 tbsp olive oil

pinch salt

put yeast in to a cup with warm water and sugar. let sit til foamy.

put the flour and salt in a bowl. Add the yeast mix and oil and stir through. knead the dough til forms a ball.

Place in a greased bowl, cover, and place somewhere warm for about 45 minutes.

punch the dough down and let sit for 5 minutes. On a floured surface, press out the dough til round and flat.

Fry dry in a fry pan, or on a cast iron skillet, like I am. Turn over 1/2 way through cooking and cook until crispy

once cooked, cut into sections for dipping in to the chili.

Dinner is done!

The longest bit of time you need is for the dough to proof, but still that’s only about an hour at tops. You can get your chili done in the meantime and find something else to do to fill in your time!

hungry kitty

 

 

PS I lost all my pics for this post, so here is a photo of hungry Arlo.

Enjoy

xx Em.

good fast food – the slow and planned version – stuffed roasted squash and other things delicious!

A while ago I found a recipe in a vegetarian cookbook called “fat freddy’s pumpkin.” It requires a big old pumpkin, cutting the top off like a lid, taking the seeds out, roasting it, scooping out and mashing the insides – then mixing it with cheeses, breadcrumbs, yeast extract, and nutmeg.

For some reason or another, a pumpkin at the supermarket costs $10 right now…

This is bloody ridiculous. Apart from the price, there is no point us buying a massive pumpkin, as only 2/3 of us in the house even like pumpkin.

So, alternative? A wee cute squash!

I have not had too much of a chance to put effort in to dinner this week for one reason or another, so tonight was the night. Here is the recipe for it, as well as some accompaniments, pizza bread and a green salad with crispy chickpeas (all recipes will be 2 generous servings).

Stuffed Roast Squash

turn up the heat, 180 degree styles

cut the top off the squash and scoop out the seeds. Roast for 30 minutes or so, until insides are soft. Today, i’m cutting the squash in 1/2, so I can serve it on the plate (cover it with tin foil if you want to do this, too)

Scoop out the insides  into a bowl and mash it.

get some oil in a pan, fry up some onion (i’m using spring onions), pine nuts, basil, rosemary. Add the mix to the squash with sea salt, ground pepper, an egg and cottage cheese.

stir all that up and chuck it back in to the pumpkin shell. Put it back in the oven for another 15 minutes or so.

Pizza Bread

1 cup wholemeal flour

1 tsp sugar

1 1/2 tsp yeast

1/2 cup warm water

1 tbsp olive oil

pinch salt

put yeast in to a cup with warm water and sugar. let sit til foamy.

put the flour and salt in a bowl. Add the yeast mix and oil and stir through. knead the dough til forms a ball.

 

Place in a greased bowl, cover, and place somewhere warm for about 45 minutes.

punch the dough down and let sit for 5 minutes. On a floured surface, press out the dough til round. put a little oil, herbs, and sea salt on the top. Cook for 20 minutes on 180.

Crispy Chickpea salad

1/2 can (200g) Chickpeas in brine (drain the brine though unless you like farting)

1 potato

2 cups baby spinach or salad greens

1/2 capsicum

1 carrot, grated

1 stick spring onion

1 boiled egg

dressing of your choice

drain the chickpeas and coat in a little olive oil. roast in the oven until crispy

chop up the potatoes in to cubes, also roast in oven (some cajun seasoning would be yummy on it!)

Boil the egg, drain, and cool. Chop in to quarters.

Throw the spinach, chopped capsicum, carrot and spring onion in to a bowl. When all other elements are cooked and cooled (warm is fine), add to the greens. Mix through before serving with your dressing, and top with the egg.


Dinner. Is. Served!

(pictures slightly differ from my methods, as I made mine just a little healthier by not having egg, and the hubby’s a little less healthy by putting breadcrumbs on the squash)

Enjoy,

xx Em.